A couple o' tunes and a random thought or two. First, Colbie Caillat...
I won't do what you told me
I won't do what you said, no
I'm not gonna stop feeling
I'm not gonna forget it
I don't wanna start over
I don't wanna pretend that
You are not my lover
That you're only my friend
That was me ten years ago. We've grown up a lil bit since then*. And then there's this...
Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too
It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful
Here we go, we're at the beginning
We haven't fucked yet, but my heads spinning
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Oh, damn. There it IS. I was gonna go off on this tangent about how and why is it that heartbreak songs outnumber those that celebrate "true love" (if there is such a thing) by a factor of at LEAST 10:1. That ratio is based upon today's Happy Hour soundtrack, which was the Joan Osbourne station on Pandora. And further... I didn't keep an actual count of the songs, it's just a gut-feel sorta thang. I think I'm erring on the conservative side as well, because if I really go with my gut I'd say the heartbreak songs outnumber songs celebrating love by a factor of 20:1. But that's just me, and we're ignoring what Ms. Phair said.
We digress. I think Miz Phair hits on it... the feeling one gets when one is caught up in an irresistible attraction and that feeling is prolly the demise of most relationships. I've been on both sides of this phenomenon and neither side is pretty: someone always gets hurt. It really makes me wonder why the hell we go through this shit but I think that's mostly a function of age. It's much easier to let it all go... to give up the chase, to accept solitude... when you've got one foot in the grave. Yet still... so much to lose, so little to gain. Why?
*Which is only a small lie.